YOU GUYS. I know I never post anymore and I’m sorry but I need your help! 

John Green is speaking on my campus this Saturday but the event is sold out. You all know how much The Fault In Our Stars means to me; I read it during my first stem cell transplant and it’s helped me through so much of this cancer crap. 

I know it’s a long shot, but he’s on here, and I’m hoping if we signal boost the hell out of this I might actually have a shot of getting into the event. 

If you ignore this, it’s totally fine, but if you could reblog it or send him a message (fishingboatproceeds.tumblr.com) I would be forever grateful.  

  • Question: Oh my goodness I am so happy I came across your blog <3 My boyfriend got diagnosed with stage 1 Hodgkins Lymphoma about 8 months ago and back in February, he was cancer free :') I'm so happy you fought and came through <3 - lowerkace
  • Answer:

    Congratulations to your boyfriend! And thank you :)

  • Question: Hi! So I saw that you go to USC and I've been looking at it for film and I was just wondering if you'd feel comfortable telling me what your high school GPA and class rank were and what your SAT scores were? I understand if you don't want to, I'm just really excited to apply there and I wanted to compare myself to a student who got accepted. Thank you! :) - apomakrysmenophobia
  • Answer:

    Hi! I’m totally fine with sharing.  I had a 4.0 unweighted and 5.4 weighted. I was 5th in my class. I got an 800 in writing, a 720 in reading, and a 650 in math (I think it’s obvious why I’m an English major lol). But I know tons of people who had lower and higher GPAs/rankings/scores than I did. Your essay’s and extra curricular’s are just as, if not more important.  From what I understand, admissions cares most about finding interesting, diverse students, so do everything you can to make your application unique, and not just about your test scores.   


I have a cold. 

Having a cold totally sucks no matter who you are, but for a transplant patient less than 3 months out like me it’s also pretty scary.  Basically, I still don’t have much of immune system so if I don’t kick this thing fast, I’m in trouble.

You guys have been so amazing, being there for me through all this, so if you could send some good vibes my way for this I’d super duper appreciate it!  

  • Question: Happened upon your story in the feminism tag, you are FIERCE! - magicmorgan
  • Answer:

    Ahh thank you so much! :)


February 24, 2014



Fun story. Today I got pulled over on my bike by an LAPD officer. I assumed it was because he saw my headphone, but what he actually saw was my ankle length skirt, a skirt I have successfully biked in numerous times. I asked him if I was in violation of any laws and he…

Good for you for standing up for yourself. Be proud; lots of people can’t do what you did- to speak up. Can I say a mom/parent thing? Your mom/parent should be proud of how amazing you are.

Thank you so much! :) She was definitely pleased with my response :)

Source: rachelgoestocali

Fun story. Today I got pulled over on my bike by an LAPD officer. I assumed it was because he saw my headphone, but what he actually saw was my ankle length skirt, a skirt I have successfully biked in numerous times. I asked him if I was in violation of any laws and he admitted I was not, but said that he was authorized to cite bikers for any hazardous behaviors.  According to him, my skirt could get caught in the wheels of the bike, creating a hazard for myself and others. I asked him if he was also citing men who longboard in flip flops, because I’ve seen some create crashes when the toe of their shoe hits the sidewalk. He said he was not; the incidents I had seen were outliers, those men know how to control themselves.  I, in my skirt, apparently do not.  So asked him if, for future reference, a shorter skirt would be acceptable.  Guess what? NOPE. His answer, I shit you not, was that women biking in shorter skirts can often serve as a distraction for young men biking and therefore cause accidents. I CANT BIKE IN A SHORT SKIRT BECAUSE OF SOME COLLEGE GUYS LIBIDO BUT I CANT BIKE IN A LONG  SKIRT BECAUSE IM THE ONE WHO CANT CONTROL MYSELF? I yelled something like that and then said that if he was going to cite me I would like to be taken to the station so I could speak with one of his superiors/a female cop. He got really nervous and said “Sorry for your time, have a nice day.” I biked away in my skirt.

I can’t even comment on this right now. I have never encountered such blatant sexism in my entire life.  Don’t you dare tell me that we’ve achieved gender equality.  

  • Question: Yaaay! I'm so happy that you don't have cancer anymore :) since i found your blog it was the first thing when i opened tumblr to check it and get feedback from you :) there were days ,when i was really worried because you haven't posted anything in a long time,but know i'm so happy:) i hope your life only gets better,happier from now on! (I know this whole thing just sounds strange because i don't even know you) - wearetheprodigy
  • Answer:

    Thank you! It doesn’t sound strange at all :)




PET Scan today. Results on Friday. I’ll let you guys know what they are. Keep your fingers crossed for good news.  

School is still kicking my butt (I’m working on an essay in the hospital now) but I PROMISE you will get a decent post this weekend.

And to everyone who has sent me messages I haven’t responded to yet, I’m truly sorry, and I appreciate them and you so much. I’ll get my shit together soon and thank you all properly :)


I’m so sorry I’ve been neglecting you guys and that this post is going to be so short, but I promise I’ll write a longer one soon! 

I’m back in school and it’s kicking my butt, but I’m so glad to be back and writing again. I’m still going to the hospital twice a week for check ups and infusions, so it’s quite a balancing act at the moment, but it feels good to be getting back to semi-normalcy. 

Thank you all for not giving up on me and sending me all those lovely words of encouragement (even when I’m too crappy to respond). 

I love you all and I swear you’ll get a better post soon :)

  • Question: Call me crazy, but you look a lot like Jennifer Lawrence, especially now that she has the pixie cut. - Anonymous
  • Answer:

    OH MY GAWD you are crazy but you just made my life. Thank you!!!

  • Question: Hey there, I have lymphoma also (large b-cell) and I will be undergoing an auto stem cell transplant at City of Hope myself in two weeks. I was wondering if you could share what it is like during and after the transplant. I'm really nervous about it, but I am so ready to have it done and hopefully be successful. - katisawesome
  • Answer:

    Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry I didn’t reply sooner. I’m back in school and have been neglecting this blog because of it :(

    My main advice for while you’re in the hospital is to sleep as much as humanly possible. It makes things go by faster and helps your body heal more rapidly.  The problem is, there are constantly going to be people in and out of your room (vital signs every four hours, shift change at 7am/pm, recreational/occupational/physical therapists during the day, and doctors whenever they have time).  My solution was to sleep whenever I could, an hour here, thirty minutes there. My mom, who was my caregiver, would also sit outside my room (there’s a chair and a table outside each patient’s room) and keep unnecessary visitors out.  The nurses were also very understanding, and would often agree to come back when I had woken up for things that didn’t have to be done at a certain time.

    Make sure you use the mouthwash.  It tastes kind of funny, and one of them feels gross when you swallow it, but they aren’t kidding when they tell you that mucositis(sp?) is a bitch.  It’s basically the result of the chemo drying out your mouth/throat and it can be pretty painful, but the more you prepare the better it is, and can sometimes be avoided altogether. If it gets too painful, they can give you pain meds for it, but try to use that as a last resort.  I say that only because I jumped right into them and ended up spending an extra week or so in the hospital going through withdrawals.  But DO ask for radiomix (a solution you swallow to numb your throat) and to see the respiratory team (even more good numbing stuff every four hours).  And if you do need pain meds ask to see the pain management team specifically, not just your regular rounding doctors, because they’re usually better about monitoring dosages and tapering you off. 

    The transplant itself is very uneventful, and kind of anticlimactic. They load you up with Benadryl (which is loads of fun, in my opinion) and then they hang the cells just like they would for a blood transfusion.  Have mints or life savers or something to suck on though because the stuff used to preserve the cells can leave a weird garlic taste in your mouth for an hour or so.  No gum though, it’ll make the mucositis worse.

    Expect a lot of doing nothing during the transplant, and try not to get down on yourself if you’re too tired to do everyday things.  Everyone who goes through this has days when they need the portable commode next to their bed because they can’t make it to the bathroom. It’s not glamorous, but it’s worth it in the end.

    Once you start to get your strength back start walking as much as you can. They’ll let you out of the hospital sooner, and it you’ll be amazed at how quickly you start to build strength again.

    I hope this helps a little bit. Please, please, please let me know if you have any specific questions, or want more info on anything.  I’d be happy to email you as well if that would be easier.     

    Good luck! And fight on! 


Ran in to Santa at the hospital today. I’m pretty sure you can all guess what I want for Christmas.